I just can’t catch a fucking break this week.
I actually start liking exercising and I get a fucking sports injury that usually only endurance athletes get in my right leg (I mean fucking really?!?)
That stopped hurting so badly with the use of meds, ice and rest but because I was walking off balance I now have a totally different and much worse pain low under my left knee and can barely walk any distance and need my cane for fear it will give out and buckle on me.
I did this to myself by overdoing it on the bike, I was doing 20-25 miles a week and now I am not allowed to do more than 2.5 to 3 miles 3 to 4 times a week and I have to put ice (which I hate!!!!) on right afterwards
Here is the thing though…I WILL be doing 2.5 to 3 miles 3-4 times a week as soon as I can walk without falling or starting Friday whichever comes first…I am NOT giving up damn it!
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I just can’t catch a fucking break this week.
According to my FITBIT http://client.fitbit.com/user/223DBK :
My avg. daily #fitstats for last week were 2,992 steps equaling 1.3 miles walked.
On average I burned 2,662 calories daily compared to taking in 1,510 calorie a day last week.
There was a time I probably walked less than 1000 steps and I KNOW 2 years ago my daily intake was ar…ound 2400 to 2600 calories a day with less burn than that
We did not make it to the gym today but I did better, I usually work out in the pool for 25 mins because that is about the point that the cold gets to me, (since weight loss surgery I get cold faster) and yet today I walked around Wal-mart for 42 mins taking over 1000 steps (thanks FITBIT)
As recently as 2 weeks ago I would of been taking the mart cart around the store and tonight I walked all over it for the second time this week. Having the physical proof of how much I can walk, how many calories I take in, how many grams of fiber, fat and protein I take in and how much liquid really helps.
I did not realize I was not eating enough fiber til I saw it in writing or that it was part of why I was so damn hungry all the time. Just adding an extra 10g of fiber has cut about 400 calories a day off my daily intake this week and made me feel better.
I was taking a protein drink every day and then realized I am on average getting a LOT of protein through my diet, I now save the rather expensive powder for after workouts and for days I am below 75gms a day at 11:30 at night, which to be honest has not happened for 2 weeks.
I feel like I am finally really taking charge of my health, even with the weight loss surgery I was sort of floating along, losing weight because with only 25% of your stomach and bypassed intestines it is hard not to lose weight at first. I was eating ok, until mid November and then I began to slip into old habits even though they made me feel awful over time.
A lot of people suggest I give myself one day a week to not worry or diet, I know myself and I know I would abuse the hell out that too easily. I have decided to give myself one “FREE DAY” a month, one day without the Fitbit on or at least not stressing about it, and one day of no dieting.
I will eat reasonably of course since not doing so hurts physically but if I want to share a piece of pie with Alex or go to a restaurant and eat a reasonable meal I will do so, for one day a month.
Right now at least unless I can ask for weights on food, calorie info or look it up on line before I go I really just dont eat much at restaurants these days. I might have a chicken breast with a dipping sauce and veggies or a small weighed steak because I can then input that but so much restaurant food has hidden calories so I avoid it. I do like to go and have a drink, tea or coffee or a cup of soup and visit or draw but I just dont feel the need to eat like I was before.
I pretty much have to accept that, as much as I may not want it to be, this is my life from now on, I will never be able to eat like “normal” but I can eat well, I can enjoy life and take care of myself and I can live long enough to enjoy the love and life I have.
I just got my FitBit yesterday and started wearing it at midnight today.
I really hope this will help give me the motivation I need to get from very very low activity to a reasonable amount by the end of the year. My arthritis makes it so hard to motivate to walk and even though I have lost 166 pounds I still weigh nearly 300 pounds and that much weight on destroyed knees is still horribly painful at times. Though I have to say that the times when it really hurts to the point of tears are becoming fewer and farther between thankfully.
I cooked a ham shank for grandma yesterday and had just a few oz of it and the salt and nitrates are killing my joints, I am use to pain in my knees since they have end stage arthritis (this means NO cartilage and dozens and dozens of micro fractures from my weight grinding them down) but the pain in my fingers, neck, ankles and even toes is extra annoying. It makes what is already annoying really painful as far as walking is concerned.
I was going to go to the gym alone (which I HATE) but I just realized I will not get a parking spot anywhere near my apt when I come home (Alex’s car fits in the garage so we usually go in his car after he gets off work) My goal is to work out 3 days a week in the pool right now so I am going to go Wed evening while Alex is doing his late late work shift. right now I am going to force myself to go walk around the parking lot at least once maybe twice, who knows maybe it will help me sleep
I love to work out with Alex my fiance when he gets off work between 12:30 am and 2:30 am (weird schedule), but he went in an hour and a half late cause of MLK day so he wont get off til very late and he says he is exhausted so I will go alone..pout. Ok to be honest I dont love it, I love the time with Alex in the water and if working out is what gets me that time…LOL I will do it